36 weeks...almost there!

How Far Along: 36 weeks 1 day

Size of baby: 7lbs maybe?

Sleep: Not happening really. But then again I've been told I'll beg for the kind of sleep I get now here in a few weeks...so I'll just keep my mouth shut ;-)

Total Weight Gain: 28lbs

Symptoms: I think I have all of them. But between the 225mg of Zantac, trying to keep my feet up, and the use of a belly belt, I think I'll survive!

Movement: I feel a lot of squirming now, and every so often I get the feeling that I can feel her "practice breathing" just by the way my belly moves up and down rhythmically.

Maternity Clothes: All the time!

Go-to eats: Fruit and cereal mmm mmmm!

Best moment of the week: Going to the doctor and picking a birth date for our girl! Unless she arrives earlier :) Also, we finished up our major shopping for the nursery!

Gender: We're having a little girl!

What I wish people knew: I think people pretty much know most of what I'm feeling right now. I'm just tired and in pain...and anxious to be holding my baby.

What I’m looking forward to: Just one more week of work until I can put my feet up! With all the numbness and swelling, I can't wait to take it easy :)

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The Hardest Part

One year ago today I had my very last prenatal checkup. I saw both my maternal-fetal medicine specialist and my ob/gyn. My blood pressure was great. Gabriel was still there and moving. There was no indication that within 24 hours my liver would start to fail. I didn't know that April 13th, 2018 would be the last time I ever saw my baby on an ultrasound. It would be the last time I heard his heartbeat. I didn't know that the next morning a pain would begin. The next day I would meet my sweet little 2-month-old nephew. I wouldn't be able to eat because I just wasn't feeling well. I would stay up late with the pain, sipping water and waiting for it to pass. The next night would be spent in the ER, not knowing we would be meeting Gabriel face to face just 10 hours later. One year ago was the beginning of goodbye to this teeny boy. And I had no idea. Wednesday morning. It's time to get ready to leave. Except it's 3:00am. I keep waking up, worried tha

We Look Like Four

6 years ago I celebrated Mother's Day with no baby in my arms. Sam had died 2 weeks before. The year after that, I was pregnant with Mira and still had no baby to hold. The year after, Mira gave me the gift of the stomach flu. ;) The last few years have been fairly "normal" with the exception that one of my children was not there. And this year, I will celebrate with half of my children. There is nothing easy about this. One thing I grieve is I will never have all of my children in one picture. I asked the photographer to take one with Mira and Edward when they came to visit us at the hospital. I'd said, I don't care if it's crazy or no one is looking. I just want one with us as a family of 5. That's what we have. One picture of the 5 of us. One. We're a family of six, but out and about we look like four. We don't look like our hands are full with just the two. We don't know what it's like to juggle a baby carrier while chasing do

A New Way to Celebrate

"But He could have saved my boys. He could have . I'm so angry He didn't. I'm going to have to work through that with God, and I'm going to need time to do it. This isn't a quick fix, and there is no band-aid big enough to patch this damage. This cut is so deep it's going to take some major reconstructive surgery." I wrote that nearly two years ago. Two years. I wasn't wrong. There has been no quick fix. There was no band-aid. I'm still working through this with God. I still need time. I'll likely be working on this grief until it's my turn to leave this world. What I can say is the waves have settled a bit; the intensity of the grief not quite so severe. I don't talk about them as much anymore. I no longer desire to go back to the hospital and cradle their cold bodies. We're done having children....even that thought isn't as painful as it was just a year ago. Sam's birthday is April 30th. Gabriel

Kaila Mugford

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