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32 Weeks

How Far Along: 32 weeks 1 day

Size of baby: About 4lbs & 17in long

Sleep: Enjoying it while I can!

Total Weight Gain: I haven't checked in a couple weeks but so far it's been 20lbs.

Symptoms: I've been pretty swollen in my hands and feet lately, and heartburn's always present. Walking around has started to get a bit painful, and breathing has become difficult.

Movement: This girl likes to make BIG movements and then stay stuck in a certain spot for awhile. At our appointment this week she was transverse...which looked really uncomfortable to me. And Jamey asked who's child this was since neither of us are very flexible!

Maternity Clothes: Of course, still wearing them. I honestly am very excited to get to zip up my pants again one day...I feel like I've forgotten what that's like.

Go-to eats: Fruit, mostly watermelon.

Best moment of the week: Our doctor's appointment. They told us I would most likely not be pregnant by June, so we are hoping to have our girl in our arms by next month!

Gender: We're having a little girl!

What I wish people knew: I know I don't deserve any special treatment at all.We are not the only people to ever have lost a baby. But I wish some people could just be happy for us, and not make any comments about the number of baby showers we're having or how they're jealous of us. I think sometimes people forget where we were one year ago, anxiously awaiting Sam's birth only to watch him die 50 minutes later. Like I said, I'm not looking for special treatment by any means, but we didn't get to do this last time...and are really enjoying the love and support we are feeling right now from others. We are so incredibly blessed, but the pain is still raw.

What I’m looking forward to: Maternity leave! I can see the light at the end of this super-long tunnel :)

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  1. AnonymousApril 12, 2013 at 10:28 PM

    Dear Kaila and Jamey and precious bundle, WE are so happy for you all. God has blessed you so much.I hope we get to see her in person someday.Heck, kaila I had both my kids at 32 weeks,lol.but the docter said it was better that way cause otherwise i wouldnt been able to give birth the regular way.but you keep her in the oven as long as possible. may god bless you all. Love, Aunt Barbara and Unle Terry

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