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Closer and closer....

How Far Along: 33 weeks 4 days

Size of baby: We got a measurement today, 5lbs 11oz!

Sleep: I really hate laying in bed knowing it's not going to be a good sleep. It hurts to roll from side to side, and most mornings I have to walk stooped for a little bit right when I get out of bed.

Total Weight Gain: Oh probably 25lbs, I'm not sure though.

Symptoms: I have ridiculously painful round ligament pain. And swelling. It just plain 'ol hurts to walk right now. And I still have about 6 weeks.

Movement: I feel all movement right under the right side of my rib cage. And today I found out why. This kid has not only her head stuck there, but her knees, feet, and arms.

Maternity Clothes: I'm getting really excited to do some shopping for non-maternity clothes this summer!

Go-to eats: Fruit, mostly watermelon.

Best moment of the week: Our second baby shower! I'm so blessed with wonderful friends to throw us such a beautiful celebration for our daughter :)  And getting my house cleaned out and ready for baby's arrival :)

Gender: We're having a little girl!

What I wish people knew: I'm in complaint-mode right now. Everyone seems to know what's best for me. "Oh, you wouldn't want to come home NOW, you would just go crazy!" "No, you don't want her to be born now, you want her to be healthy!" "Just enjoy time with your hubby right now and just be happy to be pregnant, you'll miss this!" Yes, I know what it's like to miss being pregnant, boy oh boy do I know. And duh of course I do not want to compromise this baby's health for my impatience. But if anyone thinks for one minute that if they told me she was developed enough we could have her and I could come home and be with her TOMORROW and I'd say no....you obviously don't know me well at all.

What I’m looking forward to: Coming home and being with this girl. Period. That's where I am. I've been pregnant for pretty much 2 years, and I think that deserves a little bit of understanding ;-)

Comments

  1. AnonymousApril 23, 2013 at 6:46 AM

    Getting so close now for you! As for being in complaint mode - go with it! I was so incredibly blessed to be pregnant with my son but we had had two miscarriages back to back so I felt anxious to have him out but also like you feel, being pregnant felt to me like I had been pregnant forever.

    A suggestion with the sleeping is a body pillow if you don't already have one. I used that and what seemed like a wall of pillows. I had SPD and walking was painful and laying in bed also seemed to hurt as well.

    But what joy will all this be worth it!

    KateM

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    1. Kaila MugfordApril 23, 2013 at 10:54 AM

      Yes! It's anxiety about just wanting her out and here, breathing and healthy, and also a mix of "I need my body back asap!"
      I sleep with about 6 pillows all around me. And I'm a back or stomach sleeper, the side thing is killing me! My doc says I am dealing with round ligament pain and to get the belt support, but it doesn't seem to help all that much.
      But I am getting so so so excited! May starts next week, and I am just counting down the days! :)

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  2. AnonymousApril 25, 2013 at 5:31 AM

    I remember having a HUGE cry to my Ob at 34 weeks that I was so scared that I wanted him to be here safely but also was (at that point) mentally done. I did have an induction for other reasons at 38wks though.

    I'm a belly/side sleeper so lots of pillows but as soon as I was comfy I needed the bathroom :-\ I just tried to think of it as getting ready to be working on minimal sleep with a newborn.

    I always find the last few days of a pregnancy draggggged, I was too lazy to nest ;-)

    KateM

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